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Rus Besteci
Sergey Vasilevi\u00e7 Rahmaninov<\/strong> (1873-1943)
Dinlemek i\u00e7in: https:\/\/youtu.be\/vpaPWuDQUcc<\/a>
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Rahmaninov’un D\u00fc\u015fleri<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sadece bir \u015fiir olman\u0131n verdi\u011fi tat,
piyanonun ruhuma i\u015fledi\u011fi o g\u00fcnah,
zihnimdeki o \u015fiirsel m\u00fczik,
insan olmaktan ka\u00e7\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir yandan g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m avucumda
-a\u011fl\u0131yorum g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 i\u00e7ime ak\u0131t\u0131p
Dualar\u0131ma kat\u0131lan her b\u00fcy\u00fcsel ses
-dokunakl\u0131 bir melodinin a\u011f\u0131nda
\u015eiir -sel oluyor a\u011flad\u0131k\u00e7a ve sustuk\u00e7a
Bedenimdeki so\u011fuk daha \u00e7ok ellerimde yaralan\u0131yor.
\u0130\u015fte ilk g\u00fcnah\u0131mdan ba\u015fl\u0131yorum
-ve \u00e7ocukluk hik\u00e2yelerimdeki o hayaller
Gelece\u011fimi y\u0131k\u0131yor.
Y\u0131k\u0131c\u0131 bir melodi gibi \u00fczerime geliyor hayaller
Ka\u00e7amam ki -ka\u00e7t\u0131k\u00e7a b\u00fcy\u00fcyorlar
\u0130nsanla\u015f\u0131yor hayallerim
-ve ben bu e\u015fsiz m\u00fczi\u011fi dinlerken
H\u00fcz\u00fcnleniyorum
-insanla\u015fm\u0131\u015f -canavarla\u015fm\u0131\u015f hayallerimin \u00fczerine
a\u011f\u0131t yak\u0131yorum,
-beni korkutan ne varsa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hissettiren her \u015feyi \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yorum \u00fczerimden
-ama sadece sevgiyi b\u0131rak\u0131yorum ellerimde.
Ellerimde,
Ellerimden mor menek\u015feler d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcyor.
Ne kurusundan -ne tozdan
\u00d6tede bir yerde bekledi\u011fim -bir \u015feylerin oldu\u011fu
Her \u00e2n daha \u00e7ok uzakla\u015f\u0131p -daha \u00e7ok yak\u0131nla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m
Bu sevgiyi menek\u015felere d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr\u00fcyorum.
Ne kuru -ne \u0131slak
Ruhuma \u015fifa veren
Beni beslerken kadifemsi huzuruna konuk eden
E\u015fsiz bir bilmecenin sevisi
Dokunakl\u0131 bir piyano resitali
Daha ne isterim ki bu hayattan
Zihnimdeki bu b\u00fcy\u00fcleyici \u015fiirsel dinginlik
\u00c7ok yak\u0131n\u0131mda gelmekte olan f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131n\u0131n habercisi
\u015eark\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6ylemeye haz\u0131rlan\u0131yor.
Zihnimin dans\u0131
R\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131n i\u015fledi\u011fi danteller gibi ruhum
-o y\u00fcce sevgiyi buluyorum parmaklar\u0131nda
Sen oluyorum ve birlikte yaz\u0131yoruz bu dans\u0131.
Yitip giden masumiyetin son demi
Evet \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131yor beni
-duyuyorum h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n
bir veda -bir a\u011f\u0131t yak\u0131yorum masallar\u0131n k\u0131nal\u0131 ellerine:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Aylak bir vakit
-beni bu denli heyecanland\u0131ran b\u00fct\u00fcn duygular\u0131n
Nefesimi i\u00e7ine almas\u0131 ve sonsuz bir mutlulu\u011fun \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmas\u0131 gibi
Ve bitmesi gerekti\u011fi gibi her dakikan\u0131n t\u00fcretti\u011fi bu sonsuz saniyeler
Kendimden ge\u00e7iyorum -ad\u0131n\u0131 say\u0131klad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bilmedi\u011fim
ama hep hayallerimde ya\u015fatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m -farkl\u0131 bedenlerde ya\u015fayan
Koro halinde sesler -\u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131klar\u0131 bir \u015fey var
Sevince dair -dostlu\u011fa dair
\u00c2n\u0131n metafizi\u011fi.
G\u00fcl\u00fcn sesini dinliyorum h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131da<\/em>
Melankolik yas
Derinliklerden co\u015fan bir m\u00fczi\u011fin yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 sevin\u00e7
Masallar\u0131n zaman\u0131 \u015fimdi
Tekrarlamal\u0131y\u0131m eski hayalleri ve uydurdu\u011fum b\u00fct\u00fcn oyunlar\u0131
Eski bedenlerimden ve y\u0131k\u0131lan o bah\u00e7e duvar\u0131ndan gelen vurmal\u0131 sesler…<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u015eimdi, ellerimden boyal\u0131 ku\u015flar ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f\u0131yorlar.
Meleklerin sesi canlan\u0131yor
-ve ruhani m\u00fczi\u011fin sesi kam\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yor bu sahte r\u00fczg\u00e2rlar\u0131
Ger\u00e7e\u011fi f\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131yorlar -d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc yok geri
U\u011fultusu h\u00e2kim -her sesin bedeni
Seslerin tiyatrosu yank\u0131lan\u0131yor geceye
Hazin bir ses
Tanr\u0131n\u0131n eliyim art\u0131k
F\u0131rt\u0131nan\u0131n habercisi
G\u00f6kku\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n sesi -kalemi
N\u00f6betle\u015ferek yap\u0131yoruz bu i\u015fi
A\u011flayan a\u011fac\u0131n \u015fark\u0131s\u0131y\u0131z
Hi\u00e7 l\u00fczumu yok kalabal\u0131klar\u0131n
\u0130\u00e7imizde uyuyanlardan\u0131z biz
Biz duymay\u0131z kalabal\u0131klar\u0131
Sessizce ge\u00e7eriz i\u00e7inden
M\u00fczik bizim sesimiz
Meleklerin h\u0131\u00e7k\u0131r\u0131klar\u0131
Ve sonu olmayan davam\u0131z
Ger\u00e7e\u011fin habercisi
Sus sus sus!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Konu\u015fam\u0131yorum.
Konu\u015fmam yasakland\u0131
-toplad\u0131\u011f\u0131m biletlerin yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 yakt\u0131m
Yar\u0131s\u0131 denize kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131
Tek istedi\u011fim bu sa\u00e7ma tela\u015f\u0131 susturabilmek
Renkleri g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum art\u0131k.
Ter d\u00f6k\u00fcyor f\u0131r\u00e7an\u0131n k\u0131llar\u0131
Yava\u015f yava\u015f kopuyor
\u201cdenize at \u2013denize\u201d diyor bir ses
Ve kopu\u015f ba\u015fl\u0131yor
Son yok
Sadece kopma var-<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ceren FINDIK<\/strong><\/a>
Aral\u0131k 2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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