{"id":1274,"date":"2020-05-16T12:32:54","date_gmt":"2020-05-16T09:32:54","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/?p=1274"},"modified":"2020-05-16T12:32:54","modified_gmt":"2020-05-16T09:32:54","slug":"set-emir-alisipahi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/?p=1274","title":{"rendered":"SET (Emir Alisipahi)"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

kesik k\u00f6rlerde,
el-li sa\u011f\u0131rlarda
a\u011f\u0131rland\u0131m.
efsununu yitirmi\u015f g\u00f6vdemde,
dizgini \u00e7eki\u015ftirilen
bir at gibiydi kafam.
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye mahal yok.<\/p>

m\u00fcmk\u00fcn kadar
kesin ve sefildi hislerim.
bir dirsek gibi,
vard\u0131m.
ve bir bak\u0131\u015f kadar,
yoktum.
ve bir duru\u015f kadar,
azd\u0131m.
ve bir \u00e7ift g\u00f6z kadar,
nedensizdim.
hamd\u0131m, yand\u0131m. pi\u015ftim,
yaln\u0131zca denize,
\u015f\u00f6yle bi g\u00f6z gezdirdim.
ve- inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m her \u015fey,
yaln\u0131zl\u0131k gibi.
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye mahal yok.<\/p>

(anlam-ara-yorum)
anlam\u0131yorum.
de ki:
hi\u00e7birimiz bir hi\u00e7,
birimiz hi\u00e7 beni,
olamad\u0131ysa, kendimizin?<\/p>

i\u015fte \u015fimdi,
seni bir yere koymak,
bir yeri sana koymak
kadard\u0131.
\u00fczg\u00fcn\u00fcm.
kargalar, beyazd\u0131r da.
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye mahal yok.<\/p>

hareketsizdim,
olanaks\u0131z.
uyumsuz, bir olanaks\u0131z.
bir \u015fuursuz, olanaks\u0131z.
kocaman bir,
bo\u015fluk.
ve sanc\u0131,
d\u00fcped\u00fcz a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131k.<\/p>

unutu\u015f kadar m\u0131d\u0131r utan\u0131\u015f?
\u00f6l\u00e7elim de, hani?
sanki bi kar\u0131ncay\u0131 \u00f6pseydim,
d\u00fczelir miydi?
diyorum.
ah diyorum, ke\u015fke.<\/p>

olmak.
olmak ki, kopar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yerden.
\u00f6v\u00fcnleri atlat\u0131r\u0131z,
\u00f6\u011f\u00fcnleri atlamadan,
yiyi\u015fmeli.
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye mahal yok.<\/p>

\u201chan\u0131mabiler ve beyablalar.
eril ve di\u015fil a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131ks\u0131z,
tezah\u00fcrler.
hacetten evvel i\u00e7tik s\u00fct\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc.
i\u00e7tik ki, kim oldu\u011fumuz, bilinsin.\u201d<\/p>

(ba\u015flamak, k\u0131r\u0131lmak ve \u00f6z.)<\/p>

ba\u015fla!
ba\u015fla k\u0131r\u0131l,
k\u0131r\u0131l \u00f6z\u00fcne.
sessizlik!
bu titre\u015fim, niye?<\/p>

g\u00f6rmekte
g\u00f6rmemi\u015flik,
ola\u011fand\u0131r.
yaln\u0131z-ca, g\u00f6zle.
her ge\u00e7en g\u00fcn,
yan\u0131lt kendini,
kendinden.
\u00f6z ile.<\/p>

\u00e7evir.
\u00e7evir ki d\u00f6ns\u00fcn,
d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm.
g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcz g\u00f6z ile
g\u00f6zle.
kalb ile g\u00f6zle.
yolun, alt\u0131ndan
olana dek,
ak\u0131t
k\u00f6\u015felerine,
\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc.
da\u011f\u0131l.<\/p>

d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeyi kay\u0131r.
kay\u0131r ki a\u011fz\u0131 y\u0131rt\u0131ls\u0131n ge\u00e7mi\u015fin.
al\u0131koy gelece\u011fi,
ve \u00e7i\u011fne sarkac\u0131n cesedini.<\/p>

‘cehennet’ diyorum.
arafta, yoktur \u00f6tesi.<\/p>

burada,
var\u0131\u015fs\u0131z bir ku\u015f
palazlan\u0131yor g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcne.
burada;
olacak olan.
d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye mahal yok.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Emir AL\u0130S\u0130PAH\u0130<\/strong><\/a>
May\u0131s, 2020
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