{"id":2175,"date":"2023-01-26T21:54:15","date_gmt":"2023-01-26T19:54:15","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/?p=2175"},"modified":"2023-02-08T22:07:27","modified_gmt":"2023-02-08T20:07:27","slug":"duygu-gundesin-anisina","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/?p=2175","title":{"rendered":"Duygu G\u00fcnde\u015f&#8217;in an\u0131s\u0131na&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<ul class=\"wp-block-gallery columns-2 is-cropped wp-block-gallery-1 is-layout-flex wp-block-gallery-is-layout-flex\"><li class=\"blocks-gallery-item\"><figure><a href=\"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/IMG-20230126-WA0010.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1600\" height=\"1200\" src=\"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/IMG-20230126-WA0010.jpg\" alt=\"\" data-id=\"2177\" data-link=\"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/?attachment_id=2177\" class=\"wp-image-2177\"\/><\/a><\/figure><\/li><li class=\"blocks-gallery-item\"><figure><a href=\"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/IMG-20230126-WA0009.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1600\" height=\"1200\" src=\"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/02\/IMG-20230126-WA0009.jpg\" alt=\"\" data-id=\"2176\" data-link=\"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/?attachment_id=2176\" class=\"wp-image-2176\"\/><\/a><\/figure><\/li><\/ul>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator is-style-wide\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>SON ANI: DUYGU G\u00dcNDE\u015e (G\u00f6kt\u00fcrk Ya\u015far)<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>12. 12. 2018 tarihinde Upas \u00e7at\u0131s\u0131 alt\u0131nda yazar, \u00e7evirmen, \u015fair, y\u00f6netmen, sanat\u00e7\u0131 dostlar\u0131m\u0131z ile Vault 34 \/ Ye\u015fil\u00e7am Sinemas\u0131 (Beyo\u011flu)\u2019nda etkinlik gecesi d\u00fczenlemi\u015ftik. \u00c7ok renkli ve e\u011flenceli bir geceydi. Tan\u0131mlamalar, imzalar, performanslar, tatl\u0131 sarho\u015fluklar\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Etkinlik bitti\u011finde Zafer (Yal\u00e7\u0131np\u0131nar) a\u011fabey, Duygu (G\u00fcnde\u015f) abla ve k\u0131ymetli dostum Eren (Burhan) ile ben Karak\u00f6y\u2019de bir mek\u00e2na ge\u00e7mi\u015ftik. Sohbetler edildi, \u015fiirler okundu, ele\u015ftiriler konu\u015fuldu. \u00c7ok yap\u0131c\u0131 bir atmosferdi. \u0130nsan art\u0131k g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczde bu tarz eylemlere a\u00e7. Neyse\u2026 Bu harika denge s\u00fcrerken son vapurun kalkma saati yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in mek\u00e2ndan ayr\u0131ld\u0131k. Vapurda sohbetimiz devam etti. Kad\u0131k\u00f6y\u2019e ge\u00e7ti\u011fimizde biraz daha konu\u015fup ayr\u0131ld\u0131k. Bu ayr\u0131l\u0131\u015f an\u0131 Duygu (G\u00fcnde\u015f) ablay\u0131 son g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm zamand\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Birka\u00e7 hafta ge\u00e7ti. O s\u0131rada \u0130stanbul\u2019da de\u011fildim. Gecenin ikisi\u2026 Bir telefon\u2026 Kar\u015f\u0131mda bir adam (Zafer Yal\u00e7\u0131np\u0131nar)\u2026 H\u00fcng\u00fcr h\u00fcng\u00fcr a\u011fl\u0131yor\u2026 Ama nas\u0131l biliyor musunuz? \u2013umar\u0131m hi\u00e7 bilmezsiniz- Dedim kendi kendime: -Bunu biliyorsun G\u00f6kt\u00fcrk. Sen bunu biliyorsun\u2026- \u0130nsan\u0131n \u00e7ok \u00e7aresiz hissetti\u011fi anlar olur ya\u015fam\u0131nda. Bunu daha \u00f6nce farkl\u0131 banliy\u00f6lerde ya\u015fad\u0131k, ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131z da, bunun fark\u0131nday\u0131m. Ama o an ikimizin de elinden gelen tek \u015fey a\u011flamakt\u0131. Ba\u015fka bir bok yapam\u0131yorduk\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026Neyse\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir veya iki g\u00fcn sonras\u0131nda Duygu (G\u00fcnde\u015f) abla i\u00e7in bir \u015fiire ba\u015flad\u0131m. Ger\u00e7i \u015fiirden ziyade bir a\u011f\u0131t desek daha m\u0131 do\u011fru olur, bilmiyorum&#8230; \u015eiiri yazd\u0131m, bitti. Fakat Zafer (Yal\u00e7\u0131np\u0131nar) a\u011fabeye g\u00f6stermem i\u00e7in bu \u015fiire bir ba\u015fl\u0131k \u015fartt\u0131. \u00dcst\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131k bir ev havas\u0131 veriyordu di\u011fer t\u00fcrl\u00fc \u015fiir bana. Sonra d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. Zafer (Yal\u00e7\u0131np\u0131nar) a\u011fabey ona -Biricik Mu- derdi. Sonra biz de al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k buna. S\u0131fat\u0131 bilenler yak\u0131n dostlar\u0131 Duygu (G\u00fcnde\u015f) ablaya b\u00f6yle seslenirdi baz\u0131 baz\u0131. \u015eiirin ismine bunu koymay\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ilk \u00f6nce. Ama bunun mahremiyeti Zafer (Yal\u00e7\u0131np\u0131nar) a\u011fabeydi. Ben de ba\u015fka bir \u015fey d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m\u2026 Sonra Quetzal isimli bir ku\u015f t\u00fcr\u00fcne denk geldim. Maya uygarl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bu ku\u015f t\u00fcr\u00fc \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc simgelermi\u015f. Duygu (G\u00fcnde\u015f) ablan\u0131n da \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011fe nas\u0131l de\u011fer verdi\u011fini bilen biri oldu\u011fum i\u00e7in onunla \u00f6zde\u015f bir \u015fey buldu\u011fumu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ve \u015fiirin ismi -Yerli Quetzal- oldu\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sizi -Yerli Quetzal- ile ba\u015f ba\u015fa b\u0131rakmadan \u00f6nce Duygu (G\u00fcnde\u015f) ablan\u0131n Sappho \u2019dan \u00e7evirdi\u011fi -Sevgiliye \u00d6vg\u00fc (31. B\u00f6l\u00fcm)- \u015fiirinden bir al\u0131nt\u0131 ile veda ediyorum:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<blockquote style=\"text-align:left\" class=\"wp-block-quote is-layout-flow wp-block-quote-is-layout-flow\"><p>-Zay\u0131f kalan kalbim <br>unuttu&nbsp;birden \u00e7arpmay\u0131,&nbsp;<br>Bay\u0131ld\u0131m, d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm ve s\u00f6nd\u00fc &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp;<br>Sonsuza dek ate\u015fim.-<\/p><\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<p>(Duygu G\u00fcnde\u015f&nbsp;i\u00e7in\u2026)<br><br>1\/<br>Seni unutmayaca\u011f\u0131m.<br>Seni unutmayaca\u011f\u0131m<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>2\/<br>-Ve art\u0131k ben bu iniltili insan derisi i\u00e7indeki resmi g\u00f6rebiliyorum\u2026-<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Aral\u0131kt\u0131<br>Tohumlar h\u00e2l\u00e2 donuk<br>Gece ne\u015feliydi<br>Az bir kalabal\u0131k bizi merak edip gelmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hepimiz sa\u00e7mal\u0131k sa\u00e7an histeri an\u0131<br>Seanslar\u0131yla konu\u015fuyor,<br>G\u00fcl\u00fc\u015flerle yerlerde yuvarlan\u0131yor,<br>Oturuyor,<br>Masaya ve<br>Sandalyelere t\u00fcn\u00fcyorduk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A\u011f\u0131rl\u0131k merkezli ben.<br>(O\u2019nun s\u00f6z\u00fc ile)<br>Gecenin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yan ben\u2026<br>Oturdu\u011fum yerde g\u00f6zlerimle insanlar\u0131 oyuyordum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Geceyi Karak\u00f6y\u2019de ge\u00e7irdik<br>Bir bar masas\u0131nda sekiz g\u00f6zle.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kar\u015f\u0131lar ve insans\u0131z, arabas\u0131z trans modlar\u0131<br>Haikular, uzun paket sigaralar ve ondan daha uzun s\u00f6zlerle<br>En \u00f6nemlisi b\u00fcy\u00fck bir sarho\u015fluk etkisiyle<br>Hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum o g\u00fcn\u00fc\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2026<br>Hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum. Evet, hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum.<br>Son g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm zamand\u0131 seni.<br>\u015ei\u015fmi\u015f aln\u0131n ve<br>\u00c7evirdi\u011fin \u015fiirlerle\u2026<br>\u00d6n\u00fcne kitab\u0131n\u0131 koydum ve imzalaman\u0131 istedim.<br>Yar\u0131 ay\u0131k bak\u0131\u015flarla bana bakt\u0131n<br>Ve hafif g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek; -iyi ki geldin, iyi ki vars\u0131n- yazd\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Evet, eminim.<br>On iki on iki on sekiz tarihinde<br>Karak\u00f6y\u2019de bir bar masas\u0131nda<br>D\u00f6rt ki\u015fiydik<br>\u00dc\u00e7 bira ve bir kadeh rak\u0131 vard\u0131 masada.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Esrarengizden, gece karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, \u00fclkelerden, dillerden<br>Bahsetmi\u015ftik ve k\u0131rsaldan.<br>Son vapur kalkarken\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>3\/<br>Evet, hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum. Tam tarih\u2026<br>S\u0131f\u0131r bir s\u0131f\u0131r iki on dokuz, saat gece yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ge\u00e7iyordu.<br>Bir mesaj arkas\u0131ndan bir telefon konu\u015fmas\u0131\u2026<br>Konu\u015fma s\u0131ras\u0131nda kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131kl\u0131 oturup \u00e7ocuk gibi a\u011flayan iki adam.<br>Yokluk\u2026<br>\u015e\u00f6yle tan\u0131mlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 iri adam \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc;<br>-\u015eiir gibi bir \u015fey bu,<br>Yokluk\u2026 Anlars\u0131n, sen de ya\u015fad\u0131n.-<br>Susmak\u2026<br>Elden gelen hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yok!<br>Evet, art\u0131k biliyorum.<br>Yaln\u0131z\u0131z ve o iri adamdan ba\u015fka bir haber yok!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>4\/<br>Daha<br>Yo\u011fun<br>Olabilirdi<br>Belki.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ama<br>Bu<br>Sondu!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator is-style-wide\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>DUYGU\u2019YA\u2026 (H\u00fcseyin Can Y\u00fccel)<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Edebiyat kokan Kad\u0131k\u00f6y sokaklar\u0131nda tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131k bir g\u00fcn seninle. Sait Faik\u2019i and\u0131k hep birlikte ve sen her zamanki gibi sessiz ve zariftin. Bir de bakt\u0131k ki tahta iskemleli bir meyhaneye atm\u0131\u015f\u0131z kendimizi\u2026 Masam\u0131z\u0131n en nadide \u00e7i\u00e7e\u011fi sendin ve \u00fc\u00e7 adal\u0131n\u0131n da okudu\u011fu t\u00fcm \u015fark\u0131lar senin i\u00e7indi o gece&#8230; Karanl\u0131k, so\u011fuk bir g\u00fcnd\u00fc seni sonsuzluk bah\u00e7esine b\u0131rak\u0131p geldi\u011fimiz. \u015eimdilerde dilimizde yar\u0131m kalm\u0131\u015f bir \u015fark\u0131 gibi Todori\u2019de, Selahattin P\u0131nar\u2019\u0131 an\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131z geldi akl\u0131ma ans\u0131z\u0131n. Yoksa Fenerbah\u00e7e Dalyan m\u0131yd\u0131? Dalgalar\u0131n d\u00f6vd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc Hera kayal\u0131klar\u0131nda gitar melodisine saklanm\u0131\u015f bir g\u00f6n\u00fcl s\u0131z\u0131s\u0131 gibi, kalbimizde sakl\u0131 durur t\u00fcm hat\u0131ralar. I\u015f\u0131klar i\u00e7inde ol sevgili Duygu\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator is-style-wide\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>\u0130\u00c7B\u00dcKEY KIVRIMLAR (Emir Alisipahi)<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>Duygu G\u00fcnde\u015f an\u0131s\u0131na<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zafer abiyle ilk kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmam\u0131z 2019 y\u0131l\u0131nda Tasar\u0131m At\u00f6lyesi Kad\u0131k\u00f6y(TAK)\u2019de d\u00fczenlenen bir fanzin festivalinde oldu. Kendisi tezgahta duran kitab\u0131m\u0131 al\u0131p b\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u00f6zenle okudu, s\u00f6ylemleri inceledi ve h\u0131zla yan\u0131ma geldi. Bir ufak nefeslenip, kitaptaki baz\u0131 b\u00f6l\u00fcmleri i\u015faret ederek -ben de \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc tan\u0131yorum, 3 ay \u00f6nce en yak\u0131n dostumu kaybettim- dedi bana. Duygu ablay\u0131 ben o g\u00fcn tan\u0131d\u0131m. Sonralar\u0131 tabi evvel \u00fczerinden ve Zafer abinin aktard\u0131klar\u0131yla kendisine yak\u0131nla\u015ft\u0131m. Hikayesi dikkatimi \u00e7ekmi\u015fti \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc hem incelikleri hem de u\u011fra\u015f\u0131lar\u0131 dolay\u0131s\u0131yla \u015fiir \u00e7\u0131kmaz\u0131nda oturdu\u011fu a\u015fik\u00e2rd\u0131. -Delilik bu!- Anlayaca\u011f\u0131n, bile bile lades.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sevmenin birbirinden ayr\u0131lmaz iki niteli\u011fi oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylerim hep. Nedense bunlar\u0131 yazarken akl\u0131ma geldi tam da. Biri i\u015fte -e\u011filmek-. Di\u011feri de \u00fcstelemek. Bu iki unsur merkez\u00ee olarak ya\u015fant\u0131da bir refleks haline gelince, imgenin genle\u015fmesi ka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131lmaz oluyor tabi. Duygu ablada sezdi\u011fim, bu iki unsurun ayaklar\u0131yla gezinirken ayn\u0131 zamanda gezindi\u011fi yerin bir kan g\u00f6l\u00fc oldu\u011funu -ki tarihten beri b\u00f6yledir bu- anlam\u0131\u015f olmas\u0131yd\u0131.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>-\u00c7imenim ben, b\u0131rak\u0131n i\u015fimi yapay\u0131m!-<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00dcstelik, kan\u0131n g\u00f6vdeyi -h\u00e2l\u00e2- g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc yerde. \u0130\u015fte bu teraneyi az bu\u00e7uk derinleyen&nbsp; insanlara pagan damgas\u0131 vuruyorlar ya, \u00f6yle!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Dilin i\u00e7inde bile ka\u00e7acak delik ar\u0131yoruz, hem de kelle koltuk! K\u00f6\u015fe bucak kafa tutarak da!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ya da her zamankinden One More Cup of Coffee! Kendi elimle!&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Duygu abla -s\u00f6z\u00fcm ona- annesini g\u00f6rmeye gitmeden \u00f6nce Zafer abiyle d\u0131\u015far\u0131da bir kahve i\u00e7mek istiyor. Hi\u00e7<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>kahve sevmedi\u011fini de eklemi\u015fti Zafer abi anlat\u0131rken bana. Sonras\u0131 uzun. \u0130ki kan\u00e7ana\u011f\u0131 oturduk g\u00fcn boyu, bacaya d\u00f6nd\u00fck.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u0130\u00e7b\u00fckey K\u0131vr\u0131mlar\u2019\u0131 onun an\u0131s\u0131na yazmak istedim. Niyetim g\u00f6zk\u0131y\u0131s\u0131ndan ge\u00e7mekti belki ya da bayraml\u0131k a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7mak. Biraz da tabi onun yutkunduklar\u0131ndan. becerebildim mi bilmiyorum. Soru ekli ama i\u015faretsiz birka\u00e7 c\u00fcmle.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>evvela,<br>-yani-<br>her\u015feyden \u00f6nce<br>sen de biliyorsun.<br>sabahlar\u0131n,<br>h\u0131rpalanm\u0131\u015f denizinde y\u00fczen,<br>\u00f6ylesine h\u0131r\u00e7\u0131n \u00e7ocuklard\u0131k.<br>umudun,<br>kulak t\u0131rmalayan nutuklar\u0131na&nbsp;<br>\u00e7arpard\u0131 kula\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131z.<br><br>\u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc o bel kemi\u011fimizdeki arzu,<br>\u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc o \u015fehvetin \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f kesinli\u011fi,<br>-al\u0131\u015fkan- bir vebayla lanetlenmi\u015fti.<br><br>i\u015fte bu,&nbsp;<br>\u00e7in pazar\u0131nda,<br>tacirlerin eline d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f,<br>ta\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z.<br><br>i\u015fte bu,<br>usulden kovgun,<br>bal\u0131klar\u0131n \u00f6zverisiyle bi\u00e7imlenmi\u015f,<br>ta\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>i\u015fte bu<br>kol gezen sessizlikte,<br>denizlerden daha \u0131slak&nbsp;<br>ekmeklerimizle,<br>hazirandan daha zor<br>g\u00fcnlerimizde,<br>canh\u0131ra\u015f,<br>can verdi\u011fimiz yerlerin,<br>can suyunda<br>can \u00e7eki\u015firken,<br>can\u0131m,<br>seni,<br>\u00e7ekti.<br><br>sonra kalkt\u0131 papaz\u0131n teki,<br>s\u0131rf end\u00fcljans\u0131n arka cephesine,<br>yoldan sapm\u0131\u015f c\u00fcmleler kurup,<br>kilisenin -alt\u0131n yald\u0131zl\u0131- duvar\u0131na<br>\u00e7akt\u0131k diye aforoz etti bizi.<br><br>halbuki bu yaln\u0131zca ,<br>g\u00f6vdenin boy g\u00f6steri\u015fi,<br>yani,<br>g\u00f6vdenin g\u00f6r\u00fcnen y\u00fcz\u00fcyd\u00fc.<br><br>m\u00fcsterih ol papaz efendi.<br>inan,<br>senin de g\u00fcnahlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kartt\u0131k.<br>inan.<br>ac\u0131<br>(na)<br>yor<br>duk.<br><br>sen de g\u00f6r\u00fcyorsun sevgilim.<br>kalemi ilk bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131zda k\u0131rd\u0131lar.<br>\u00e7at\u0131nda<br>\u00f6fkelendik,<br>ka\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n.<br><br>koyun koyuna<br>\u00f6fkelendik,<br>elimizin kiriyle<br>\u00f6fkelendik,<br>\u00f6l\u00fcye su serperken<br>g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z,<br>dilimizin pas\u0131nda<br>lekelendik,<br>dilimizin pas\u0131yla<br>incindik.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>i\u015fte,&nbsp;<br>g\u00f6r\u00fcyorsun sevgilim.<br>bu diyardan biz,<br>inceldi\u011fimiz yerde koptuk.<br><br>i\u015fte, g\u00f6r\u00fcyorsun ya!<br>anlamak,<br>ve anlay\u0131\u015f.<br>\u00e7a\u011flar boyu s\u00fcregelen,<br>en ince hastal\u0131k.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>ve her\u015feye ra\u011fmen,<br>-yaln\u0131zca-<br>senin koynunda yad\u0131rgamad\u0131m,<br>bu d\u00fcnyevi muhabbetlerin<br>kirli u\u011fultusunu.&nbsp;<br><br>\u015fimdi giderayak&nbsp;<br>deliller b\u0131rak\u0131yorum ard\u0131mda,&nbsp;<br>damlalar\u0131n o kat\u0131ks\u0131z<br>a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131nca.<br>tembih ettim ku\u015flara,<br>ve bilhassa,<br>f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131m y\u0131lg\u0131n kanatl\u0131lar\u0131n,<br>sivri kulaklar\u0131na.<br><br>heybetli u\u00e7aklar,<br>yolunuza engel de\u011fil!<br>sinsi kurallar,<br>kaz gelecek yerden<br>tavu\u011fu esirgemeyen<br>kurallar,<br>y\u0131lan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131<br>k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckken ezen<br>kurallar,<br>k\u0131sa ayaklar\u0131n\u0131<br>gizleyen<br>kurallar,<br>yolunuza yordam de\u011fil!<br><br>ve tesellisi z\u00fc\u011f\u00fcrd\u00fcn,<br>yetinecek yer de\u011fil!<br><br>bozdum b\u00fct\u00fcn ezberleri,<br>gidiyorum.<br>\u00e7ekilemez art\u0131k t\u0131rnaklar\u0131,<br>\u00e7a\u011flan\u0131r bu karga\u015fa!<br><br>ac\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6lgesine d\u00fc\u015ferken,<br>yad\u0131rgad\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn bu z\u0131rvalar\u0131.<br><br>dallara t\u00fcnerken,<br>g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<br>-yaln\u0131zca-<br>kediler izlemekte,<br>kesilen a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131.<br><br>kendimi s\u0131narken,<br>bildim.<br>kumrular da s\u0131\u011f\u0131nt\u0131ym\u0131\u015f,<br>saks\u0131lara,<br>cam kenarlar\u0131na.<br><br>ve elbette sevgilim.<br>kabul,<br>en \u00e7etrefilli yoldu,<br>da\u011flar\u0131n k\u0131y\u0131ya<br>dik uzanan 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