{"id":2527,"date":"2024-02-01T21:28:59","date_gmt":"2024-02-01T19:28:59","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/?p=2527"},"modified":"2024-02-10T00:45:38","modified_gmt":"2024-02-09T22:45:38","slug":"esik-fulya-girginer","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/?p=2527","title":{"rendered":"E\u015e\u0130K (Fulya Girginer)"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<div style=\"height:20px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\"><figure class=\"aligncenter\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"600\" height=\"400\" src=\"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/02\/narziss.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-2531\"\/><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:20px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>-L\u00fctfen yakla\u015fma!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Dinlemiyordu beni. Giderek yakla\u015f\u0131yordu. Belli belirsiz\nasl\u0131nda. Hareket etti\u011fini g\u00f6rebilmek i\u00e7in g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc k\u0131rpmadan bak\u0131yordum. G\u00f6zlerim\nac\u0131d\u0131, sonunda k\u0131rpmak zorunda kald\u0131m. Ama hissediyordum, bir \u015fekilde yakla\u015f\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sinsice, \u00e7ok yava\u015f, s\u00fcz\u00fclerek\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u0131p\u0131rdayam\u0131yordum bile. \u00d6ylece bak\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Damarlar\u0131 var m\u0131yd\u0131? Damarlar\u0131nda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck kurt\u00e7uklar\ndola\u015f\u0131yor olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Kurt\u00e7uklar \u00f6yle hareketliydi ki, b\u00fct\u00fcnde hareketsiz\ng\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Zamanda s\u00fcz\u00fclebiliyordu. Kadim bilgelerin nefeslerini\nta\u015f\u0131yordu \u00fcst\u00fcnde.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bulundu\u011fu o yerden bana do\u011fru t\u00fcm alan\u0131 kaplayabiliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ve asl\u0131nda yoktu\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcndeki a\u011fa\u00e7tan bir \u00e7\u0131t sesi geldi. Ben ve onun\nb\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00f6zleri, kulaklar\u0131, antenleri, duyargalar\u0131, h\u00fccreleri, kemikleri, sese\nd\u00f6nd\u00fck. Bir yaprak dal\u0131ndan koptu. \u015ea\u015f\u0131rd\u0131k. Yaprak s\u00fcz\u00fcle s\u00fcz\u00fcle d\u00fc\u015fmeye\nba\u015flad\u0131. Bu kez yapra\u011fa seslendim,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>-L\u00fctfen yakla\u015fma, l\u00fctfen\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi. Yani, bir y\u00fcz\u00fc yoktu asl\u0131nda. T\u00fcm evreni\ng\u00fcl\u00fcmseten, yapra\u011f\u0131n kenar\u0131ndan yans\u0131yan, r\u00fczg\u00e2r\u0131 \u0131s\u0131tan bir \u015fey oldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Kalbimin sesini i\u015fitmeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. Her bir at\u0131\u015fta bir ad\u0131m\nyakla\u015f\u0131yordum ona do\u011fru. Yakla\u015f\u0131yor muydum? Bilmiyorum\u2026 Dayanmak i\u00e7in tek \u00e7arem\nkalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131, direnmek. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>G\u00f6zlerimi dimdik \u00fczerine diktim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fclmeye ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7ta arkas\u0131ndaki a\u011fa\u00e7tan daha uluydu, sonra ben\nbakt\u0131k\u00e7a k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcld\u00fc iyice. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcld\u00fc, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcld\u00fc\u2026 A\u011fac\u0131n kovu\u011funa kadar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Bir ter damlas\u0131 aln\u0131mda y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Dimdik bakmay\u0131\ns\u00fcrd\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Damla ka\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131ndaki \u00e7izgide yer buldu,\noradan burnuma d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 hi\u00e7 indirmeden sa\u011f elimi kald\u0131rd\u0131m ve sildim\ndamlay\u0131. Sonra sol elimi de hareket ettirdim. Yava\u015f, ama \u00e7ok yava\u015f ad\u0131mlarla\nilerlemeye ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yalvard\u0131 bana,<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>-L\u00fctfen yakla\u015fma!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:20px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>Fulya G\u0130RG\u0130NER<\/strong> <br><a href=\"mailto:fulyacim@gmail.com\">fulyacim@gmail.com<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[149],"class_list":["post-2527","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-fulya-girginer","comments-off"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2527","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2527"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2527\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2532,"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2527\/revisions\/2532"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2527"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2527"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2527"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}