{"id":3243,"date":"2025-10-29T08:52:15","date_gmt":"2025-10-29T05:52:15","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/?p=3243"},"modified":"2025-10-29T08:52:15","modified_gmt":"2025-10-29T05:52:15","slug":"aynalardan-sonra-emrah-sonmezisik","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/?p=3243","title":{"rendered":"AYNALARDAN SONRA (Emrah S\u00f6nmez\u0131\u015f\u0131k)"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Aynalara yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f s\u00f6zd\u00fcm, gittik\u00e7e azal\u0131yordu anlam\u0131m<br>Karl\u0131 da\u011flara g\u00f6m\u00fclen ac\u0131lar gibi bir \u015feydi bu<br>Uzaktan gelmi\u015f, uzakta sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m herkesi<br>Sonra birini bekledim durdum, yoldan say\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 art\u0131k g\u00f6zlerim<br>S\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131m yalanlard\u0131 sonra, ba\u015f\u0131bo\u015f k\u0131y\u0131lar\u0131n ak\u015fam\u0131yd\u0131<br>Yans\u0131yan ne varsa s\u0131rd\u0131 \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc<br>Cama vuran g\u00fcne\u015f, davullar, zurnalar;<br>yeni bir h\u00fczne haz\u0131rlard\u0131 ancak insan\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sonra yanan her nefes, ayn\u0131 denize d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr dediler; inand\u0131m<br>Sonra yeniden alevlendi soyundu\u011fum o karanl\u0131k<br>Ka\u00e7 b\u0131\u00e7ak k\u00f6reldi de ard\u0131mdan sonra; ka\u00e7 \u00e7i\u00e7ek daha\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Arad\u0131\u011f\u0131m toprak, kollar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131ndayd\u0131 oysa<br>Ama tenimde kaybolan ku\u015flard\u0131, hep ayn\u0131 tedirginlik<br>Yani g\u00f6\u011fe de\u011fen ne varsa, dizilmi\u015fler sanki s\u0131raya<br>Ka\u00e7 \u00e7\u00f6l\u00fc birden s\u00fcr\u00fcyordu kayg\u0131lar<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Belki de d\u00fcnyadan saklam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m g\u00f6lgemi<br>Hen\u00fcz yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir \u015fiir gibi eksiktim<br>Duraktaki k\u00f6pe\u011fin neden havlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilemeyecek kadar yoksun<br>Hi\u00e7 denenmemi\u015f bir g\u00fcnd\u00fcm belki de<br>Ama kim ne yaps\u0131nd\u0131 ellerimi<br>De\u011fil mi ki seslendi\u011fim kuyuya, \u00e7\u0131kr\u0131klar bile e\u011filmedi<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Her \u015feye vakit var demekti bu asl\u0131nda<br>Kumrular da al\u0131\u015fmam\u0131\u015f m\u0131yd\u0131 yoklu\u011fuma<br>Anlams\u0131z korkular giyinmez miydi ki evleri<br>Tan\u0131d\u0131k y\u00fczlerin \u00e7\u0131kmaz\u0131yd\u0131 sonu\u00e7ta<br>Duvarlarda hep ayn\u0131 kal\u0131nl\u0131k<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Hi\u00e7bir yere s\u0131\u011fmaz sokaklard\u0131 sonra<br>Ka\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m ne varsa bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 arard\u0131<br>Kimsesiz \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n doland\u0131\u011f\u0131 parklard\u0131<br>Neyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnsen kurtulan bir balon olurdu<br>Sonra u\u00e7u\u015fan harfler, sonra \u00fcniformal\u0131 suskunluklar<br>Sonra kurt ate\u015fleriyle da\u011flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m dilimi<br>Yar\u0131m yamalak uykulard\u0131 sonra<br>Unuttu\u011fum an\u0131lar \u00f6rterdi \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fc<br>Akl\u0131mda zaten d\u00fcnden kalma bir c\u0131z\u0131rt\u0131<br>Hayli han\u00e7erlerdi sonra akl\u0131mda<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ya da devrilen her a\u011fa\u00e7 yaln\u0131zca kendini ta\u015f\u0131yamazd\u0131<br>Ya da sokuldu\u011fum kalabal\u0131ktand\u0131<br>Kanad\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131k bir u\u00e7urum e\u011ferdi dallar\u0131m\u0131<br>Ki yan\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m kuytularda b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m kalbimi<br>Sonra geceler de \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmaz oldu sabah\u0131<br>Sonra kuruyan bir ormand\u0131, olup bitenden habersizli\u011fimdi sonra<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/?tag=emrah-sonmezisik\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noreferrer noopener\"><strong>Emrah S\u00d6NMEZI\u015eIK<\/strong><\/a><br>Ekim 2025<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[86],"class_list":["post-3243","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-emrah-sonmezisik","comments-off"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3243","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3243"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3243\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3244,"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3243\/revisions\/3244"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3243"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3243"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3243"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}