{"id":963,"date":"2019-09-20T13:20:17","date_gmt":"2019-09-20T10:20:17","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/?p=963"},"modified":"2019-09-20T15:17:53","modified_gmt":"2019-09-20T12:17:53","slug":"dustu-fatih-balci","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/upas.evvel.org\/?p=963","title":{"rendered":"D\u00dc\u015eT\u00dc (Fatih Balc\u0131)"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>D\u00fc\u015f<br> D\u00fc\u015f<br> D\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc i\u00e7imden ak\u015fam\u0131n ilahi kap\u0131c\u0131s\u0131<br> Dilimde bir isyan\u0131n kriptosu<br> H\u0131h dedim kendime<br> Par\u00e7alayarak ve \u0131ht\u0131rarak \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 i\u00e7imden g\u00fcn\u00fcn sanc\u0131s\u0131<br> S\u0131k\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f a\u011fz\u0131ndan f\u0131\u015fk\u0131rmaya ba\u015flay\u0131nca y\u0131llar\u0131n ac\u0131s\u0131<br> Ya\u015famaklardan nas\u0131l e\u011flence oluyor ona bakt\u0131m<br> \u00d6l\u00fc y\u00fczler sarkarak \u015fark\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u00fcyordu penceremde<br> \u0130hanetler ve a\u015fklar gezinirken derinlerimde<br> Serin mart\u0131lar\u0131n kanat \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131\u015f\u0131 bulant\u0131m\u0131 bast\u0131r\u0131yordu<br> Nil\u2019in \u00e7amurlu \u0131l\u0131k sular\u0131 akarken g\u00f6zlerime<br> Bir \u00e7ocu\u011fu kundaklam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m oysa ben<br> Gazeteden bir hayat\u0131n provas\u0131n\u0131 katlarken<br> \u0130syand\u0131 i\u00e7imde b\u00fcy\u00fcyen<br> Caddeleri y\u0131kayarak<br> Her t\u00fcr iblise kar\u015f\u0131 \u015fiddetli sava\u015flar a\u00e7arak<br> Bir isyan\u0131n s\u00f6zc\u00fcs\u00fc olmal\u0131yd\u0131m bu gece hayat i\u00e7in<br> \u0130\u00e7imde y\u00fcksek barikatlar kuruluyordu<br> Kald\u0131r\u0131m ta\u015flar\u0131na ad\u0131m\u0131 kaz\u0131rken<br> Almaata, K\u00fcba ve Kenya \u00e7ocu\u011fumdu<br> D\u00fc\u015f<br> D\u00fc\u015f<br> D\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc kurdu\u011fum Akdeniz i\u00e7in<br> \u0130\u00e7imde bo\u011fu\u015furken<br> Yanl\u0131\u015f bir a\u015fk\u0131n \u00e7ehresi<br> \u0130ptal davas\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131yordum<br> Ben olmayan bir duygunun zincirlerine<br> \u0130syand\u0131 i\u00e7imde b\u00fcy\u00fcyen<br> Ye\u015fil tarlalar\u0131n ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ad\u0131na<br> Ki orada<br> Kesilmi\u015f ba\u015f\u0131yla adalet<br> M\u0131r\u0131ldan\u0131yordu<br> Ac\u0131nas\u0131 bir kay\u0131ts\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n anayasas\u0131n\u0131<br> D\u00fc\u015f<br> D\u00fc\u015f<br> D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu Paris<br> Dokuzuncu senfoninin notalar\u0131 aras\u0131ndan halk i\u00e7in<br> Konstantinopolis\u2019in plastik anahtar\u0131 teslim edilirken<br> Bir isyand\u0131m Topkap\u0131\u2019da<br> Kal\u0131b\u0131na yeni d\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f demirden bir h\u0131n\u00e7 olarak<br> Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131yordum<br> \u0130nsanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n surlar\u0131na<br> Ki menzilim d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmden daha uza\u011fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu<br> D\u00fc\u015f<br> D\u00fc\u015f<br> D\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcnd\u00fcm<br> A\u015fk\u0131n beni kahreden s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131na<br> Safl\u0131\u011f\u0131ma hah diyordum \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131kla<br> A\u011fz\u0131m\u0131n baharat\u0131yla \u00f6perken taze bir an\u0131y\u0131<br> Orada bir hayvanat<br> Konferans verirken yeni nesil barbarl\u0131klara<br> Taranm\u0131\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u0131yla<br> \u00dct\u00fcl\u00fc sahtek\u00e2rl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla<br> Nefretimi hak ediyordu<br> Y\u00fcz\u00fcmde buru\u015fmu\u015f ac\u0131maklar<br> Di\u015flerimde sersemlemi\u015f bir bilincin delili\u011fi<br> \u0130syan ediyordum suretlerin ba\u015f\u0131bo\u015f ve bombo\u015f aptall\u0131\u011f\u0131na<br> D\u00fc\u015f<br> D\u00fc\u015f<br> D\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc<br> Aya\u011f\u0131na tak\u0131l\u0131nca bir \u00e7ocu\u011fun bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131<br> \u0130\u00e7inden erken do\u011fmu\u015f bu hayat\u0131n cinsiyetsizli\u011fi<br> Davran\u0131\u015flar, duru\u015flar ve konu\u015fmalar \u00f6z\u00fcrl\u00fc bir \u00e7izgi roman gibi uzuyordu<br> E\u011fri ve bi\u00e7imsiz organlar\u0131 da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015fken d\u00fckk\u00e2nlara<br> \u0130syan diye h\u00f6yk\u00fcrd\u00fcm \u015fehirlerin ortas\u0131na<br> Keskin han\u00e7erlerin \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131 sinema salonlar\u0131ndan \u00f6n\u00fcme d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu<br> Kand\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f t\u00fcm kahramanlar<br> Sa\u00e7arak k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 tanelerini ortal\u0131\u011fa<br> Acayip g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015flerle yan\u0131ma dizilip dikeldiler<br> Hadi ba\u015flay\u0131n diye t\u0131slad\u0131m<br> H\u0131nc\u0131m da\u011f\u0131l\u0131rken sokaklarda<br> Delili\u011fin alt\u0131n surlar\u0131nda bir heykeli yontuyordu<br> Ucu ucubede olsa<br> Vars\u0131n olmas\u0131nd\u0131 bu bir an\u0131t<br> Anti heykel<br> Antika bir g\u00fczellik<br> Besmeleler \u00e7ekerek \u00e7eki\u015ftirdi\u011fim \u015feylere benziyordum<br> Allah\u0131n ve Tanr\u0131n\u0131n kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcnlerdi<br> 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